爱在日落黄昏时 Before Sunset 精讲之六

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Celine: No, I didn't. And it pisses me off, okay? You come here to Paris, all romantic, and married. Okay? Screw you. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to get you. I mean, all I need is a married man. There's been so much water under the bridge, it's not even about you. It's about that moment in time that's forever gone.

Jesse: You say that, but you didn't even remember having sex, so...

Celine: Of course I remembered.

Jesse: You did?

Celine: Yes. Women pretend things like that.

Jesse: They do?

Celine: What was I supposed to say? That I remember the wine in the park and us looking up at the stars fading away as the sun came up? We had sex twice, you idiot!

Jesse: All right, you know what, I'm just happy to see you. Even if you've become an angry, manic-depressive activist...I still like you, I still enjoy being around you.

Celine: And I feel the same. I'm sorry. I don't know what happened, I just... I had to let it all out.

Jesse: Don't worry about it.

Celine: I'm so miserable in my love life, in my relationship. I always act as... Like, you know, I'm detached. But I'm dying inside. I'm dying because I'm so numb. I don't feel pain or excitement, I'm not even bitter, I'm just...

Jesse: You think you're the one dying inside? My life is 24/7 bad.

Celine: I'm sorry.

Jesse:: No, no. I mean, the only happiness I get is when I'm out with my son. I've been to marriage counseling...I've done things I never thought I would have to do. I've lit candles, bought self-help books, lingerie.

Celine: Did the candles help?

Jesse: Hell, no. I don't love her the way she needs to be loved...and I don't even see a future for us, but then I look at my little boy sitting across from me, and I think I'd suffer any torture...to be with him for all the minutes of his life. I don't want to miss out on one. But then, there's no joy or laughter in my home, you know? I don't want him growing up in that.

Celine: No laughter? That's terrible. My parents have been together 35 years...and even when they fight they end up laughing.

Jesse: I don't want to be one of those people who are getting divorced at 52...and falling down into tears, admitting they never really loved their spouse...and they feel their life has been sucked up into a vacuum cleaner. You know, I want a great life. I want her to have a great life...she deserves that. But we're just living in the pretense of a marriage, responsibility...you know, all these ideas of how people are supposed to live. But then I... I have these dreams...

Celine: What dreams?

Jesse: I have these dreams, you know, that...I'm standing on a platform...and you keep going by on a train...and you go by, and you go by, and you go by, you go by. And I wake up with the fucking sweats. And then I have this other dream...where you're pregnant in bed beside me naked...and I want so badly to touch you, but you tell me not to and you look away. And I... And I touch you anyway...right on your ankle, and your skin is so soft that I wake up in sobs, all right? My wife is there looking at me, and I feel I'm a million miles from her. And I know that there's something wrong, that I...God, that I can't keep living like this...that there's gotta be more to love than commitment. But then I think that I might have given up...on the whole idea of romantic love. That I might have put it to bed that...That day when you weren't there. You know, I think I might have done that.

Celine: Why are you telling me all this?

Jesse: I'm sorry. I don't know. I'm... I should...I shouldn't have.

Celine: You know, it's so weird. People think they are the only one going through tough times. I mean, when I read the article, I thought your life was perfect. A wife, a kid, published author. But your personal life is more of a mess than mine. I'm sorry.

Jesse: Well, I'm glad it's good for something. This is where you live?

Celine: Yeah.

Jesse: So you're just relieved that I'm in even more deep shit than you are?

Celine: Yes, you've made me feel better.

Jesse: Oh, good, I'm glad.

Celine: No, I really wish you the best. It's not because I'm incapable of having a good relationship or a family...that I wish everyone to be doomed like me.

Jesse: I'm sure you'd make... Be a great mom someday.

Celine: Really? You think so?

Jesse: Yeah...a few antidepressants, you know, you'll do great.

Celine: Okay, say stop.

Jesse: Stop. Okay. You ready?

Celine: Okay.