偶像励志英语演讲 82:做真正的自己(4)

[00:00.33]Then my career turned into-I got my own sitcom, and that was very successful, another level of success. 接着，我有了自己的喜剧，也很成功，并且是更大的成功。 [00:07.37]And I thought, "what if they find out I'm gay, then they'll never watch," 我又在想，要是人们发现我是同性恋，该怎么办?他们再也不会看我的节目了。 [00:10.12]and this was a long time ago, this was when we just had white presidents-but anyway this was back, many years ago- 这是很早以前的事情，你们可能不知道，这是我们的总统都还是白人的时候，那是多年前的事了。 [00:21.49]and I finally decided that I was living with so much shame, and so much fear, 我一直都是带着羞耻和恐惧而活， [00:31.29]that I just couldn't live that way anymore, 我最终决定，我不能再这么活着了。 [00:32.57]and I decided to come out and make it creative. 我最终决定将这个秘密公之于众，要有创造性， [00:34.51]And my character would come out at the same time, 同时也要将我真实的个性展示出来。 [00:36.36]and it wasn't to make a political statement, 不是为了政治， [00:38.10]it wasn't to do anything other than to free myself up from this heaviness that I was carrying around, 也不是为了其他原因，只是要把我从背负已久的沉重的枷锁中解脱出来。 [00:42.34]and I just wanted to be honest. 我只是想要诚实。 [00:45.02]And I thought, "What's the worst that could happen? I can lost my career." I did. I lost my career. 我想不会有更惨的事情了。失去演艺事业。 [00:50.58]The show was cancelled after six years, without even telling me, I read it in the paper. 在我做了六年节目后，电台在没有告知我本人的情况下就停播了我的节目。我是在看了报纸后才知道的。 [00:57.04]The phone didn't ring for three years. 家里的电话三年没有响过， [01:00.44]I had no offers. Nobody wanted to touch me at all. 没人想让我做节目，没人愿意接触我。 [01:05.31]And yet, I was getting letters from kids that almost committed suicide, but didn't, because of what I did. 后来我接到了想要自杀的孩子的来信，他们是因为我所做的事情而没有自杀。 [01:12.42]And I realised that I had a purpose. 我才知道我活在世上是有目的的， [01:15.13]And it wasn't just about me and it wasn't about celebrity, but I felt like I was being punished... 不仅仅是因为我，不仅仅是因为我是名人，我好像是在被惩罚。 [01:19.40]it was a bad time, I was angry, I was sad, 那段时间很艰难，我很愤怒，也很难过。 [01:23.09]and then I was offered a talkshow. 但接着有人找我做脱口秀节目。 [01:25.14]And the people that offered me the talkshow tried to sell it. 制作单位想要卖出节目， [01:28.15]And most stations didn't want to pick it up. 但大多数的电视台都不想要， [01:31.08]Most people didn't want to buy it because they thought nobody would watch me. 大多数人都不想要买，因为他们认为没人想看我的节目。

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