双语·心是孤独的猎手 第三部分 4

Night

All was serene. As Biff dried his face and hands a breeze tinkled the glass pendants of the little Japanese pagoda on the table.He had just awakened from a nap and had smoked his night cigar.He thought of Blount and wondered if by now he had traveled far.A bottle of Agua Florida was on the bathroom shelf and he touched the stopper to his temples.He whistled an old song, and as he descended the narrow stairs the tune left a broken echo behind him.

Louis was supposed to be on duty behind the counter. But he had soldiered on the job and the place was deserted.The front door stood open to the empty street.The clock on the wall pointed to seventeen minutes before midnight.The radio was on and there was talk about the crisis Hitler had cooked up over Danzig.He went back to the kitchen and found Louis asleep in a chair.The boy had taken off his shoes and unbuttoned his trousers.His head drooped on his chest.A long wet spot on his shirt showed that he had been sleeping a good while.His arms hung straight down at his sides and the wonder was that he did not fall forward on his face.He slept soundly and there was no use to wake him.The night would be a quiet one.

Biff tiptoed across the kitchen to a shelf which held a basket of tea olive and two water pitchers full of zinnias. He carried the flowers up to the front of the restaurant and removed the cellophane-wrapped platters of the last special from the display window.He was sick of food.A window of fresh summer flowers—that would be good.His eyes were closed as he imagined how it could be arranged.A foundation of the tea olive strewn over the bottom, cool and green.The red pottery tub filled with the brilliant zinnias.Nothing more.He began to arrange the window carefully.Among the flowers there was a freak plant, a zinnia with six bronze petals and two red.He examined this curio and laid it aside to save.Then the window was finished and he stood in the street to regard his handiwork.The awkward stems of the flowers had been bent to just the right degree of restful looseness.The electric lights detracted, but when the sun rose the display would show at its best advantage.Downright artistic.

The black, starlit sky seemed close to the earth. He strolled along the sidewalk, pausing once to knock an orange peel into the gutter with the side of his foot.At the far end of the next block two men, small from the distance and motionless, stood arm in arm together.No one else could be seen.His place was the only store on all the street with an open door and lights inside.

And why?What was the reason for keeping the place open all through the night when every other café　in the town was closed?He was often asked that question and could never speak the answer out in words.Not money.Sometimes a party would come for beer and scrambled eggs and spend five or ten dollars.But that was rare.Mostly they came one at a time and ordered little and stayed long.And on some nights, between the hours of twelve and five o’clock, not a customer would enter.There was no profit in it—that was plain.

But he would never close up for the night—not as long as he stayed in the business. Night was the time.There were those he would never have seen otherwise.A few came regularly several times a week.Others had come into the place only once, had drunk a Coca-Cola, and never returned.

Biff folded his arms across his chest and walked more slowly. Inside the arc of the street light his shadow showed angular and black.The peaceful silence of the night settled in him.These were the hours for rest and meditation.Maybe that was why he stayed downstairs and did not sleep.With a last quick glance he scanned the empty street and went inside.

The crisis voice still talked on the radio. The fans on the ceiling made a soothing whirl.From the kitchen came the sound of Louis snoring.He thought suddenly of poor Willie and decided to send him a quart of whiskey sometime soon.He turned to the crossword puzzle in the newspaper.There was a picture of a woman to identify in the center.He recognized her and wrote the name—Mona Lisa—across the first spaces.Number one down was a word for beggar, beginning with m and nine letters long.Mendicant.Two horizontal was some word meaning to remove afar off.A six-letter word beginning with e.Elapse?He sounded trial combinations of letters aloud.Eloign.But he had lost interest.There were puzzles enough without this kind.He folded and put away the paper.He would come back to it later.

He examined the zinnia he had intended to save. As he held it in the palm of his hand to the light the flower was not such a curious specimen after all.Not worth saving.He plucked the soft, bright petals and the last one came out on love.But who?Who would he be loving now?No one person.Anybody decent who came in out of the street to sit for an hour and have a drink.But no one person.He had known his loves and they were over.Alice, Madeline and Gyp.Finished.Leaving him either better or worse.Which?However you looked at it.

And Mick. The one who in the last months had lived so strangely in his heart.Was that love done with too?Yes.It was finished.Early in the evenings Mick came in for a cold drink or a sundae.She had grown older.Her rough and childish ways were almost gone.And instead there was something ladylike and delicate about her that was hard to point out.The earrings, the dangle of her bracelets, and the new way she crossed her legs and pulled the hem of her skirt down past her knees.He watched her and felt only a sort of gentleness.In him the old feeling was gone.For a year this love had blossomed strangely.He had questioned it a hundred times and found no answer.And now, as a summer flower shatters in September, it was finished.There was no one.

Biff tapped his nose with his forefinger. A foreign voice was now speaking over the radio.He could not decide for certain whether the voice was German, French, or Spanish.But it sounded like doom.It gave him the jitters to listen to it.When he turned it off the silence was deep and unbroken.He felt the night outside.Loneliness gripped him so that his breath quickened.It was far too late to call Lucile on the telephone and speak to Baby.Nor could he expect a customer to enter at this hour.He went to the door and looked up and down the street.All was empty and dark.

“Louis！”he called.“Are you awake, Louis?”

No answer. He put his elbows on the counter and held his head in his hands.He moved his dark bearded jaw from side to side and slowly his forehead lowered in a frown.

The riddle. The question that had taken root in him and would not let him rest.The puzzle of Singer and the rest of them.More than a year had gone by since it had started.More than a year since Blount had hung around the place on his first long drunk and seen the mute for the first time.Since Mick had begun to follow him in and out.And now for a month Singer had been dead and buried.And the riddle was still in him, so that he could not be tranquil.There was something not natural about it all—something like an ugly joke.When he thought of it he felt uneasy and in some unknown way afraid.

He had managed about the funeral. They had left all that to him.Singer's affairs were in a mess.There were installments due on everything he owned and the beneficiary of his life insurance was deceased.There was just enough to bury him.The funeral was at noon.The sun burned down on them with savage heat as they stood around the open dank grave.The flowers curled and turned brown in the sun.Mick cried so hard that she choked herself and her father had to beat her on the back.Blount scowled down at the grave with his fist to his mouth.The town's Negro doctor, who was somehow related to poor Willie, stood on the edge of the crowd and moaned to himself.And there were strangers nobody had ever seen or heard of before.God knows where they came from or why they were there.

The silence in the room was deep as the night itself. Biff stood transfixed, lost in his meditations.Then suddenly he felt a quickening in him.His heart turned and he leaned his back against the counter for support.For in a swift radiance of illumination he saw a glimpse of human struggle and of valor.Of the endless fluid passage of humanity through endless time.And of those who labor and of those who—one word—love.His soul expanded.But for a moment only.For in him he felt a warning, a shaft of terror.Between the two worlds he was suspended.He saw that he was looking at his own face in the counter glass before him.Sweat glistened on his temples and his face was contorted.One eye was opened wider than the other.The left eye delved narrowly into the past while the right gazed wide and affrighted into a future of blackness, error, and ruin.And he was suspended between radiance and darkness.Between bitter irony and faith.Sharply he turned away.

“Louis！”he called.“Louis！Louis！”

Again there was no answer. But, motherogod, was he a sensible man or was he not?And how could this terror throttle him nice this when he didn't even know what caused it?And would he just stand here like a jittery ninny or would he pull himself together and be reasonable?For after all was he a sensible man or was he not?Biff wet his handkerchief beneath the water tap and patted his drawn, tense face.Somehow he remembered that the awning had not yet been raised.As he went to the door his walk gained steadiness.And when at last he was inside again he composed himself soberly to await the morning sun.