美国男演员威尔·弗里德勒回顾过去，讲述小时候独自去纽约试镜时如何买色情杂志

Will Friedle is looking back on his past.

威尔·弗里德勒正在回顾他的过去。

Appearing on Monday's episode of the Hey Dude... The 90's Called! podcast, the 47-year-old actor — best known for his role as Eric Matthews in the beloved sitcom Boy Meets World — recounted how he used to buy porn magazines during his solo trips into New York City for auditions as a kid.

在周一的Hey Dude节目中…90年代来了!这位47岁的演员——他因在深受喜爱的情景喜剧《男孩遇见世界》中饰演埃里克·马修斯而闻名——讲述了他小时候独自去纽约试镜时是如何买色情杂志的。

"I tell people my story and they think I'm lying or they think my parents had a serious problem," he told hosts David Lascher and Christine Taylor of the independence he was given beginning at just 11 years old.

“我告诉人们我的故事，他们认为我在撒谎，或者他们认为我的父母有严重的问题，”他告诉主持人大卫·拉舍尔和克里斯汀·泰勒，他从11岁开始就获得了独立。

Friedle went on to explain that both of his parents had busy careers as attorneys so they allowed him to take the roughly three-hour bus ride from his home in Avon, Connecticut, to Manhattan by himself.

弗里德勒接着解释说，他的父母都是律师，工作很忙，所以他们允许他自己坐大约三个小时的公交车从康涅狄格州埃文的家到曼哈顿。

"I'd get off at Port Authority, and my manager would pick me up — most of the time — and I would walk the streets at 11 years old," he said. "I started smoking at a very young age, so I would go and I would buy cigarettes."

“我在港务局下车，我的经理会来接我——大多数时候——11岁的我就会走在街上，”他说。“我很小的时候就开始吸烟，所以我会去买烟。”

But that's not all he bought. The enterprising preteen also scooped up porn magazines during his N.Y.C. jaunts.

但他买的还不止这些。这个有事业心的少年还在他的纽约之行中搜罗了色情杂志。

"Because I knew I could sell them for way more money to my friends back in Connecticut," he told Taylor and Lascher, both fellow '90s stars who appeared together on Nickelodeon's Hey Dude.

“因为我知道我可以把它们以更高的价格卖给康涅狄格州的朋友，”他告诉泰勒和拉舍尔，两人都是90年代的明星，一起出现在Nickelodeon的Hey Dude节目中。

"So I would stop at the kiosk and they would look at me and say, 'Well, you're 11, so of course, here are cigarettes and porn," he added, prompting Lascher to joke, "This is like the dark Home Alone 2."

“所以我会在小卖部停下来，他们会看着我说，‘好吧，你才11岁，当然，这里有香烟和色情片，’”他补充说，这让拉舍开玩笑说，“这就像黑暗的《小鬼家2》。”

Friedle admitted that his mother and father now have a far different stance on their laissez-faire parenting back in the day. "I tell my parents these stories now and they are retroactively mortified that any of this ever happened," he said.

弗里德勒承认，他的母亲和父亲现在对他们当年放任的教育态度有了很大的不同。他说:“我现在把这些故事告诉我的父母，他们现在回想起来，为这一切的发生感到羞愧。”

The former child star, however, looks back fondly on that time, as it opened up his horizons.

然而，这位前童星深情地回忆起那段时光，因为它开阔了他的视野。

"I loved it. [Avon] was a wonderful place to grow up, but I experienced more real life in the three or four hours I was in New York City every week than I ever did in Avon. And it was a great way to see the world," he explained.

“我很喜欢。(雅芳)是一个适合成长的好地方，但我每周在纽约的三四个小时里体验到的真实生活比我在雅芳时体验到的更多。这是一个看世界的好方法，”他解释道。

Elsewhere in the podcast interview, Friedle tackled a more serious topic: opening up about his struggles with crippling anxiety and panic attacks. He recalled experiencing his very first panic attack while filming the 1999 movie H-E Double Hockey Sticks.

在播客采访的其他地方，弗里德勒谈到了一个更严肃的话题:公开他与严重焦虑和恐慌发作的斗争。他回忆起1999年拍摄电影《H-E双曲棍球棒》时第一次惊恐发作的经历。

"I'm in the middle of a take and I have my first panic attack. They used the take, so I can actually watch my first panic attack ever [in the final movie]. But I'm the only one who knows it," he said.

“我正在拍摄，我第一次恐慌发作。他们用了镜头，所以我可以(在最后一部电影中)看到我第一次惊恐发作。但我是唯一知道的人，”他说。

"I thought I was dying," he added of how he felt in the moment. "You have to be dying because there is no other explanation for why, all of a sudden, your body and mind are doing this to you."

“我以为我要死了，”他在谈到自己当时的感受时说。“你一定要死了，因为没有其他的解释可以解释为什么你的身体和思想突然对你做了这样的事情。”

He said he "started to spiral" in the aftermath of his first attack, even ending up unable to get out of bed for weeks at one low point. "You're in your head, you're not sleeping, which is another trigger for anxiety. So everything is just rolling in on itself and it's just getting worse and worse."

他说，在第一次发作后，他的情绪“开始螺旋式上升”，甚至一度低落到几周都无法下床。“你在你的脑海里，你没有睡觉，这是另一个引发焦虑的因素。所以所有的事情都在自己滚动，情况变得越来越糟。”