艾莉森·霍尔克说，在斯蒂芬死后，她几乎每天晚上都和他说话:“我原谅他了”

Allison Holker Boss is reflecting on her grief and finding forgiveness after the death of her husband Stephen "tWitch" Boss.
艾莉森·霍尔克·博斯在丈夫斯蒂芬·“推奇”·博斯去世后，正在反思她的悲伤，并寻求原谅。

On the latest episode of The Viall Files podcast, the So You Think You Can Dance alum, 35, revealed that she still talked to Stephen after his death by suicide at age 40 on Dec. 13, 2022.
在最新一期的《the Viall Files》播客中，这位35岁的舞林高手透露，在斯蒂芬于2022年12月13日自杀身亡后，她仍然和他说话，享年40岁。

“I was talking to him really actively,” she shared. “I talked to him almost every single night, a really long time. It would be about anything and everything. It could be how was the day today? …Or I would be really upset and yelling at him sometimes.” 
“我真的很积极地和他交谈，”她分享道。“我几乎每天晚上都和他说话，很长一段时间。它会是关于任何事情的。也可以是今天过得怎么样?或者我会很生气，有时会对他大喊大叫。”

The new So You Think You Can Dance judge added that their conversations ranged widely, saying, “There's times I've just screamed and there's times I've been like, 'Okay, I'm picking a school for the kids. What do you think of this school?’ And then just wait for an answer. Yeah. You know, and so it's all sorts of different kinds of things that we would talk about.”
这位《舞林争霸》的新评委补充说，他们的谈话范围很广，“有时我只是尖叫，有时我想，‘好吧，我在为孩子们选一所学校。你觉得这所学校怎么样?’然后就等着你的回答。是的。你知道，所以我们会讨论各种各样的事情。”

The professional dancer also recalled “the biggest conversation” she had with him, which was “the most healing.”
这位职业舞者还回忆了她和他“最大的一次对话”，这是“最能治愈的”。

“I was outside and I was looking at the stars and I said — whether it was necessary or not, I don't know if it was necessary or needed — but I forgave him,” she said. “And I said, ‘I hope you found that peace.’ Like, genuinely, I really hope he found that peace that he needed and that he felt like he needed. You know? And that's a really hard thing to do.”
她说:“我当时在外面看星星，我说——不管是否有必要，我不知道是否有必要——但我原谅了他。”“我说，‘我希望你能找到那种平静。“就像，真的，我真的希望他能找到他需要的平静，他觉得他需要的平静。你知道吗?这是一件很难做到的事情。”

“But, I just have so much that I want, I needed to allow myself to almost be free of that for him,” she continued. “And so we just had this long dialogue and I did. I was like, 'I forgive you and I hope you have that peace. And I've got it and I've got the kids, we've got each other. We're gonna be okay.’”
“但是，我想要的东西太多了，我需要允许自己为了他而放弃，”她继续说道。“所以我们就进行了长时间的对话，我做到了。我说，‘我原谅你，我希望你能平静下来。我有了它，我有了孩子，我们有了彼此。我们会没事的。’”

Elsewhere in the conversation, the Keep Dancing Through: A Boss Family Groove author told host Nick Viall that she still feels Stephen’s “presence.”
在谈话的其他地方，《一直跳舞:一个老板的家庭节奏》的作者告诉主持人尼克·维尔，她仍然能感觉到斯蒂芬的“存在”。

“He's still protecting me. I still feel him. My kids talk about that as well,” she shared. “And his love that was so great for us is still with us. You know? And so for me, I just try to hold onto that and remember that I'm still gonna have dark days. I'm still gonna have a lot of lows. There's still so many things in this journey that I still haven't experienced, but it's all about the way you choose to move through it.” 
“他还在保护我。我还能感觉到他。我的孩子们也会谈论这些，”她分享道。“他对我们如此伟大的爱仍然与我们同在。你知道吗?所以对我来说，我只是试着抓住它，并记住我仍然会有黑暗的日子。我还是会有很多低潮。在这段旅程中，还有很多事情我还没有经历过，但这都取决于你选择的前进方式。”

She continued: “It'd be very easy for me and I've had a lot of people say to me, ‘Why don't you just go get crazy? Or why don't you just, you know, cry in a corner for a little bit?’ Honestly, a lot of people would like to see me crying in a corner, which I've done. A lot of people would like to see me still there.”
她继续说道:“这对我来说很容易，很多人对我说，‘你为什么不疯狂一点呢?或者你为什么不，躲在角落里哭一会儿呢?“说实话，很多人都希望看到我躲在角落里哭，我也这样做了。很多人希望看到我还在那里。”