暮光之城•暮色 第249期:第十四章 精神胜于物质(18)

[00:00:01]For example — his words flowed swiftly now, I had to concentrate to catch it all — the emotion of jealousy. “例如”——他说话变得迅速起来，我不得不集中精力去捕捉每一个字——“嫉妒的情绪。 [00:06:55]I've read about it a hundred thousand times, seen actors portray it in a thousand different plays and movies. 我读到过这种情绪千万次，在一千部不同的戏剧和电影里看过演员对此的演绎。 [00:13:59]I believed I understood that one pretty clearly. But it shocked me… He grimaced. Do you remember the day that Mike asked you to the dance? 我相信自己对此的理解非常透彻，但它却震撼了我……”他扮了个鬼脸。“你还记得迈克邀请你去舞会那天吗?” [00:23:32]I nodded, though I remembered that day for a different reason. The day you started talking to me again. 我点了点头，不过我记得那一天却是出于一个完全不同的理由。“那天你又开始和我说话了。” [00:32:15]I was surprised by the flare of resentment, almost fury, that I felt — I didn't recognize what it was at first. “我被那阵一闪而过，几近狂暴的愤怒惊呆了，我所感觉到的——起初我根本分辨不出这是什么样的情绪。 [00:38:57]I was even more aggravated than usual that I couldn't know what you were thinking, why you refused him. Was it simply for your friend's sake? 我不知道你在想什么，这种挫败感比平时来得还要严重，因为我不知道你为什么拒绝他。仅仅是为了你的朋友的缘故吗? [00:48:42]Was there someone else? I knew I had no right to care either way. I tried not to care. 还是为了某个人?我知道我没有权利去关心这些方面。我努力不让自己去关心这些。” [00:54:29]And then the line started forming, he chuckled. I scowled in the darkness. “然后排队邀请你的队伍开始形成了。”他轻笑起来。我在黑暗中把脸绷起来。 [00:59:17]I waited, unreasonably anxious to hear what you would say to them, to watch your expressions. “我等待着，焦虑不安得毫无理由地，想要听到你会对他们说什么，想要看见你的表情。 [01:08:23]I couldn't deny the relief I felt, watching the annoyance on your face. But I couldn't be sure. 我无法否认，当看到你脸上烦恼的神情时，我感到一阵宽慰。但我不能肯定。 [01:15:16]That was the first night I came here. I wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. 那是我第一次晚上来这里。当我看着你的睡容时，我整夜都在挣扎着，在我知道是正确的，合乎道德的，合乎伦理的，和我想要的之间挣扎着，有如困于深谷之中。

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