牛津书虫系列 远离尘嚣19 芭丝谢芭与盖伯瑞尔

Chapter 19 Bathsheba and Gabriel
第十九章 芭丝谢芭与盖伯瑞尔
Gabriel arrived at Boldwood's house about five minutes after the shooting.
枪击事件过去约五分钟后，盖伯瑞尔来到伯德伍德的家。
The villagers were all shocked and silent，but Bathsheba was sitting on the floor，calmly holding Troy's head.
村民们都被震慑住了，一言不发。芭丝谢芭坐在地上，平静地捧着托伊的头。
‘Gabriel，’she said simply，‘I'm afraid it's too late，but ride to Casterbridge for a doctor.
“盖伯瑞尔，”她淡淡地说，“恐怕太晚了，请你骑马到卡斯特桥给请个医生来。
Mr Boldwood has shot my husband.Gabriel obeyed at once，
伯德伍德先生向我丈夫开枪了。”盖伯瑞尔立即遵命行事，
and while riding along was tinking so hard about the shooting that in the darkness he failed to notice a man walking along the road to Casterbridge.
他一边骑马前行，一边满脑子考虑枪击托伊 的事，所以没有注意到黑暗中有个人也在沿着大路走向卡斯特桥。
That man was Boldwood，on his way to Casterbridge to confess to his crime.
那个人便是伯德伍德，准备去卡斯特桥坦白自己的罪行。
Bathsheba ordered the body to be removed to her house，and by herself she washed and dressed her dead husband for burial.
芭丝谢芭吩咐人们把尸体抬到她家，然后独自给死去的丈夫洗净、穿衣，准备埋葬。
But when the doctor，the vicar and Gabriel arrived，and she no longer needed to be strong，
然而，等医生、牧师、盖伯瑞尔来到时，她便用不着再硬撑了，
her self-control finally broke，and she became very ill.
她便无法再克制自己，病倒了。
On the doctor's advice she was put to bed，and her illness continued for several months.
遵照医生吩咐，人们把她抬到床上。她连续病了几个月。
At his trial the following March Boldwood was found guilty of murder，for which the usual punishment was death.
三月份，经过审判， 伯德伍德被判犯有杀人罪。这种罪通常是要处以死刑的。
However，Weatherbury people began to protest publicly that he should not be held responsible for the crime.
然而，威瑟伯里的人们公开抗议，认为他并不应对此罪行负责。
Over the last few weeks the villagers had noticed how his moods changed from wild despair to feverish excitement.
在事发前几星期，人们便已经注意到他的情绪发生了变化，原先是绝望之极，后来又激动不安。
He had forgotten his farm and even lost the previous year's harvest.
他完全置农场于不顾，甚至头一年的收成也损失掉了。
And a pile of carefully wrapped parcels of dresses and jewels was found at his house，addressed to‘Bathsheba Boldwood’and dated six years ahead.
在他家，人们找到几个精心包好的包裹，装着衣服和首饰上面写着“给芭丝谢芭·伯德伍德，”日期则是六年以后。
These were accepted by the judges as signs of his madness，and in the end Boldwood was sent to prison for life.
法官们认为，这表明他已精神失常，因而伯德伍德最终被判终生临禁。
Gabriel knew that Bathsheba blamed herself for Troy's death，and would have blamed herself even more for Boldwood's.
盖伯瑞尔明白，芭丝谢芭在为托伊的死而自责，如果伯德伍德死了，她会更加严厉地自责的。
Her health improved only very slowly.
她康复得非常之慢，
She hardly ever went out of the house or garden，and did not discuss her feelings with anyone，even Liddy.
几乎从未出门，也从未同任何人谈起过她自己的感情问题，包括利蒂。
But by the summer she was beginning to spend more time in the open air，and one August evening she walked to the churchyard.
不过，夏天到来时，她在户外的时间多起来了，八月的一个傍晚，她走到了教堂墓地。
She could hear the village children inside the church practising their singing for Sunday.
她听见村里的孩子们正在教堂里练习星期天的祷歌。
She went straight to Fanny's grave，and read Troy's words on the large gravestone：
她径直走向范妮墓边，读着大大的墓碑上托伊的话：
This stone was put up by Francis Troy in loving memory of Fanny Robin，who died on October 9，1866，aged 20.
谨立此碑怀念可爱的范妮·罗宾。她于1866年10月9日逝世，年20岁。
Underneath，on the same stone，were the words she had added：
立碑人弗兰西斯·托伊。在同一墓碑的下方，刻着她加上的字：
In the same grave lies Francis Troy who died on December 24，1867，aged 26.
同一墓穴中安息着弗兰西斯·托伊，他于1867年12月24日逝世，年26岁。
As she listened to the sweet voices of the children coming from the church，
她听着教堂里传来的孩子们甜美的嗓音，
and thought of the pain she had experienced in her short life，tears came to her eyes.
想着自己这短短的生活中所经历的痛苦，不禁热泪盈眶。
She wished she were as innocent as those children again.
她真希望自己也能像那些孩子一般天真无邪。
She was still crying when she suddenly noticed Gabriel Oak，who had come up the path on his way to the church，and was watching her sympathetically.
她正哭着，突然注意到盖伯瑞尔·奥克已在向教堂走来，正同情地注视着她。
‘Are you going in?’she asked，trying to dry her tears.
“你要进教堂去吗?”她边问，边把泪水擦干。
‘I was，’he replied. ‘I'm one of the church singers，you know，and tonight's my practice evening.
“我本来要去的，”他答道。“我是教堂唱诗班的，今晚轮到我排练。
But I don't think I'll go in now. ’There was a pause，while they both tried to think of something to say.
不过，我现在不想进去了。”两人都顿住了，都在尽力找话说。
At last Gabriel said slowly，‘I haven't seen you，to speak to，for a long time. Are you better now?’
最后，盖伯瑞尔缓缓地说：“有好长时间没有见你，也没有和你说话了。你现在好些了吗?”
‘Yes，I am，’she replied. ‘I came to look at the gravestone. ’
“好些了，”她回答。“我来看看这墓碑。”
‘Eight months ago it happened!’said Gabriel. ‘It seems like yesterday to me. ’
“八个月以前的事了!”盖伯瑞尔说。“可我觉得好像是昨天一样。”
‘And to me it seems like years，long years ago. ’
“我可觉得像好多、好多年以前似的。”
‘There's something I must tell you，’said Gabriel，hesitating.
“我有话得告诉你，”盖伯瑞尔犹豫地说。
‘The fact is，I won't be your farm manager much longer. I'm thinking of leaving England，and farming in America. ’
“我不能再为你经管农场了，我在考虑离开英国，去美国种地。”
‘Leaving England!’she cried in surprise and disappointment.
“离开英国!”她喊道，既感到意外，又觉得失望。
‘But everyone thought you would rent poor Mr Boldwood's farm and manage it yourself!’
“可人们都以为你会租下伯德伍德的农场自己经营的呀!”
‘The lawyers have offered it to me，it's true.
“没错，律师们向我提出来过，
But I'll be leaving Weatherbury next spring. I have my reasons. ’
可我到春天就要离开威瑟伯里，我有我的理由。”
‘And what shall I do without you?Oh Gabriel，we're such old friends!
“没有你我怎么办呢?盖伯瑞尔啊，咱们交朋友这么长时间了。
You've helped me so much in the past，and now that I'm more helpless than ever，you're going away!’
过去你给了我那么多的帮助，现在我比任何时候都需要帮助，可你却要走了!”
‘It's unfortunate，’said Gabriel unhappily. ‘It's because of that helplessness that I have to go，’
“真是不幸，”盖伯瑞尔不快地说。“就是因为这种无援无助我才不得不走的。”
and he walked so guickly out of the churchyard that she could not follow him.
说着，他快步走出墓地，她想跟却没能跟得上他。
In the next few months Bathsheba noticed miserably that Gabriel communicated with her as little as possible，and then only by messenger.
接下来的几个月，芭丝谢芭痛苦地注意到，盖伯瑞尔一直尽少与她直接交往，最后只与她书信往来了。
She could not avoid thinking that he，the last friend she had，had lost interest in supporting her，and was about to desert her.
她不由得认为她这个最后的朋友已不想再帮助她，在准备遗弃她。
On the day after Christmas she received the letter from him which she had been expecting.
圣诞节后的那天，她收到了他的信，与她的预料一样。
In it he explained that he would leave the farm in three months’time.
信中，他解释说，他将于三个月后离开农场。
Bathsheba sat and cried bitterly over this letter.
芭丝谢芭拿着信坐在那里，
She was deeply hurt that Gabriel no longer loved her.
盖伯瑞尔不再爱她，使她感到深受伤害。
She was also worried about having to manage the farm by herself again.
同时她也因自己又要管理农场而感到担忧。
She thought about it all morning，and was so depressed by the afternoon that she put on her cloak and found her way to where Gabriel lived.
整个上午她都在考虑这件事情，下午来到时，她深感沮丧，于是披上斗篷向盖伯瑞尔的住处走去。
She knocked at the door.
她敲了敲门。
‘Who is it?’said Gabriel，opening the door. ‘Oh，It's you，mistress!’
“谁呀?”盖伯瑞尔一边开门，一边问道。“啊呀，是你呀，主人。”
‘I won't be your mistress much longer，will I，Gabriel?’she said sadly.
“我当主人不会当几天了，是不是，盖伯瑞尔?”她悲伤地说。
‘Well，no，I suppose not. ’
“嗯，是的，我想是吧。”
Because these two people，who knew each other well，were meeting in a strange place，
此时，这两个彼此相熟的人在新的地方相会，
they felt like the strangers they were when they first met，and neither spoke for a moment.
因此，他们都觉得像彼此初次见面时那样陌生，两人都一时无话。
‘Gabriel，perhaps I shouldn't have come，but I—I thought I must have offended you，and that's why you're going away.
“盖伯瑞尔，也许我本不该来，可我——我想肯定是我得罪你了，所以你才想要离开。”
‘Offended me!You couldn't do that，Bathsheba!’
“得罪我!你不会得罪我的，芭丝谢芭!”
‘Couldn't I?’she said gladly. ‘But then why are you going?’
“我不会吗?”她高兴地说。“那你为什么要走呢?”
‘I'm not going to America，you know. I decided not to，when you seemed against the idea.
“我不去美国了。我看你似乎不赞成我去，我就决定不去了。
No，I've arranged to rent Mr Boldwood's farm，and I could have been your farm manager as well，if—well—if people hadn't said things about us. ’
我已经打算好租下伯德伍德先生的农场，而且，要不是人们说咱俩的那些话，我还可以给你经管农场。”
‘What?’said Bathsheba，surprised. ‘What things?’
“什么?”芭丝谢芭诧异地问道。“说咱俩什么?”
‘Well，if you must know，that I'm just waiting and hoping for the chance to marry you some day. ’
“呃，如果你真要知道，我告诉你。他们说我在等待并盼望有一天找机会娶你。”
‘Marry me!That's too foolish—too soon—to think of!’
“娶我!这太愚蠢——太快了——没法想象!”
‘Yes，of course，it's foolish. I certainly agree. ’
“当然了，是太愚蠢，我同意。”
‘“Too soon”were the words I used. ’
“我是说‘太快了’。”
‘I'm sorry，but I think you said“too foolish”. ’
“对不起，我还以为你说的是‘太愚蠢’呢。”
‘I'm sorry too，’she replied with tears in her eyes. ‘“Too soon”was what I said.
“我也对不起你，”她两眼含着泪回答道。“我说的是‘太快了’，
But it doesn't matter a bit，not at all—but I only meant“too soon”. Indeed，you must believe me!’
不过这没关系，一点关系都没有——我的意思只是说‘太快了’。真的，你得相信我!”
Gabriel looked into her face for a long time. ‘Bathsheba，’he said，coming closer，
盖伯瑞尔长时间地望着她的脸。“芭丝谢芭，”他说着走近了她，
‘If I only knew one thing—whether you'd allow me to love you，and marry you after all—if I only knew!’
“我真想知道一件事——你让不让我爱你，让不让我娶你——我真想知道!”
‘But you never will know，’she whispered.
“可你绝不会知道的，”她悄声地说。
‘Why not?’
“为什么不会?”
‘Because you never ask. ’
“因为你从来不问。”
‘Oh!’said Gabriel delightedly. ‘My darling—’
“啊!”盖伯瑞尔喜悦地说，“亲爱的——”
‘You should never have sent me that cruel letter this morning.
“你今天早上怎么能把那封残酷的信送给我!
It shows you don't care a bit about me!’
那说明你一点也不把我当回事!”
‘Now Bathsheba，’he said，laughing，‘you know very well that I had to be very careful，as a single man working for you，a good-looking young woman.
“芭丝谢芭，”他笑着说，“你非常清楚，我必须非常小心行事才行，我是个给你干活的单身男人，你却是个漂亮的年轻女人。
I've been so worried about your good name. That's why I was going to leave. ’
我一直为你的好名声而担忧，所以我才准备走的。”
‘And that's the only reason?Oh，I'm so glad I came!’she cried thankfully，as she got up to leave.
“就这一个原因?啊，我真庆幸我来了你这儿，”她欣慰地喊道，说着起身准备离去。
‘I've thought so much more about you since I imagined you didn't even want to see me again.
“自从我以为你不想再见到我以来，我一直在想你呀!
But Gabriel，I shouldn't have come to visit you!
可是，盖伯瑞尔，不应该是我来看你!
I seem to be courting you!How awful!’
倒像是我在追你!太可怕了!”
‘Well，I've courted you，my beautiful Bathsheba，for a very long time，so one visit from you isn't much to ask. ’
“不对，是我在追你，漂亮的芭丝谢芭，追了你好久，所以请你来看我一次也不算多。”
As he walked back to the farmhouse with her，they talked of his plans for Boldwood's farm.
他陪她走回屋去，一 路上，他们谈论着他经营伯德伍德农场的打算，
They spoke very little of their feelings for each other.
而关于彼此之间的感情却谈得很少。
They were such old friends that expressions of love were probably unnecessary.
他们二人已相知很深，互相表述爱情或许已无必要。
Their shared interests and their long，friendly relationship had given them a complete understanding of each other's character，
他们二人的共同利益、互相 之间的长久友谊已经使他们彼此十分了解对方的性格，
and this finally developed，after their wedding，into a love that nothing could destroy.
而这种了解在他们二人结婚之后，又发展成了一种无坚不摧的爱情。