I recognize I have brought this on myself, and I know above all I am the one who needs to change. I owe to my family to become a better person. I owe to those closest to me to become a better man. That's where my focus will be.
I have a lot of work to do, and I tend to dedicate myself to doing it. Part of following this path for me is Buddhism, which my mother taught me at a young age. People probably don't realize it, but I was raised a Buddhist, and I actively practiced my faith from childhood until I drifted away from it in recent years. Buddhism teaches that a craving for things outside ourselves causes an unhappy and pointless search for security. It teaches me to stop following every impulse and to learn restraint. Obviously, I lost track of what I was taught.
1. stake out
eg. Detectives have been staking out the house for two days now.
eg. It's wise to stake out each freed prisoner for a few months after he gets out of prison.
2. for the sake of
eg. He had married her principally for the sake of her father's property.
eg. You should take care of your niece for the sake of your sister.
eg. We can't risk big things for the sake of small ones.
3. leave sb./sth. alone
eg. Some people need to confront a traumatic past; others find it better to leave it alone...
eg. When the boss gets mad, leave him alone.
4. above all
eg. What a child should do, above all, is to do well in his studies.
eg. He was above all a good and tireless writer.
5. tend to do sth.
eg. Such jokes tend to reinforce racial stereotypes.
eg. People tend to amass possessions, sometimes without being aware of doing so.
6. dedicate oneself to sth./ doing sth.
eg. Back on the island, he dedicated himself to politics.
eg. Bessie has dedicated her life to caring for others.
7. lose track of
eg. You become so deeply absorbed in an activity that you lose track of time.
eg. It's so easy to lose track of who's playing who and when.