双语畅销书|《这不是告别》第十五章

　　《这不是告别》作为全美媒体和读者的年度之选，一出版就迅速横扫《纽约时报》畅销书榜长达45周，席卷全球三十多国。故事讲述了一头红发、穿着肥大男款衬衫的Eleanor，与沉默寡言、沉迷于音乐和漫画世界的Park之间的故事。

"Just listen."

“你听我说。”

And wanting to cry just made her angry.

而想哭令她愤怒。

Her mother stood in the bedroom the next morning while Eleanor got ready. "Here," she whispered, taking the hairbrush and drawing Eleanor's hair into a ponytail without brushing out the curl. "Eleanor…" she said.

第二天上午，埃莉诺准备出门时，妈妈挡在了卧室门口。她用梳子把埃莉诺的头发拢成一个马尾，连卷发都没梳开，就低语着：“我说，埃莉诺啊…”

"Okay, well… good," her mom said, folding her arms, still whispering. "It's just that you're so young."

“好吧…很好，”妈妈双手抱胸，依然是低语，“真的，你还太年轻。”

"No. I know. He won't come back, okay? I didn't invite him, but I'll tell him, and he won't come back."

“不用了，我知道。他不会再来了，行了吧？我根本没请他来，不过我会跟他说的，让他不要再出现。”

"No," Eleanor said, "that's not what it is. But it doesn't even matter. He won't come back, okay? It isn't even like that anyway."

“不，”埃莉诺说，“这不是重点。反正这些都不重要。他不会再来了，可以了吗？反正我们之间也不是那回事。”

Her mom left the room. Richie was still in the house. Eleanor ran out the front door when she heard him turn on the bathroom sink.

妈妈离开了房间。雷奇还在屋里，埃莉诺听到他在给浴缸放水，赶紧冲出前门。

# Eleanor #

#埃莉诺#

Because if she was going to cry about something, it was going to be the fact that her life was complete shit -- not because some cool, cute guy didn't like her like that.

因为就算她要哭，也是为自己狗屎一样的人生而哭，而不是为一个很酷的男孩喜欢她、但不是那种喜欢而哭。

"I know why you're in here," Eleanor said, pulling away. "I don't want to talk about it."

埃莉诺抽身：“我知道你要说什么，我不想谈。”

It's not even like that, she thought as she walked to the bus stop. And thinking it made her want to cry, because she knew it was true.

她边走向校车站边想，根本不是那回事。她忍不住想哭，因为她知道，事实就是如此。