双语畅销书|《这不是告别》第五十七章

　　《这不是告别》作为全美媒体和读者的年度之选，一出版就迅速横扫《纽约时报》畅销书榜长达45周，席卷全球三十多国。故事讲述了一头红发、穿着肥大男款衬衫的Eleanor，与沉默寡言、沉迷于音乐和漫画世界的Park之间的故事。

Eleanor wasn't here, she was never really here -- and she'd been gone too long. Almost a year now.

埃莉诺不在这里，从来就不在——而且她离开已经太久了，将近一年。

Park turned to walk away from the house, but the little brown truck whipped too fast into the driveway, jumping the curb and nearly clipping him. Park stopped on the sidewalk and waited. The driver's side door swung open.

帕克转身离开，但是一辆棕色小卡车飞快地冲入车道，碾过路阶，差点撞到他。帕克站到人行道上等着。驾驶座的门打开了。

Maybe, he thought. Maybe this is why I'm here.

或许，他想，或许这就是我在这里的理由。

Like, Park would be driving to work and he'd see a girl with red hair standing on the street, and he'd swear for half an airless moment that it was her.

比如，帕克开车去打工，看到一个红发女孩站在街头，他差点停止呼吸，那一剎那，他坚信那女孩就是埃莉诺。

So why did he keep coming here? To this crappy little house…

但是他为什么继续往这栋破烂的小房子…？

But he couldn't summon her. Sometimes he couldn't even remember what she looked like, even when he was looking at her picture. (Maybe he'd looked at it too much.)

但他不能召唤她。有时他甚至不记得她长什么样，甚至是他看着她的照片。（也许他看得太多了。）

Or he'd wake up when it was still dark, sure that she was waiting for him outside. Sure that she needed him.

或者他会在天黑的时候醒来，确信她在外面等他。确信她需要他。

He'd stopped trying to bring her back.

他已经放弃让她回来。

He'd stopped trying to bring her back.

他已经放弃让她回来。

She only came back when she felt like it anyway, in dreams and lies and broken-down déjà vu.

反正她也是想回来才回来，出现在梦里、谎言里，或者破碎的、似曾相识的场景里。

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