暮光之城•暮色 第219期:第十三章 自白(14)

[00:00:38]I couldn't speak. 我说不出话来。 [00:01:14]I took precautions, hunting, feeding more than usual before seeing you again. “我做足了准备，去狩猎，喝得甚至比必要的还要多，然后再去见你。 [00:09:20]I was sure that I was strong enough to treat you like any other human. I was arrogant about it. 我确信我足够坚强，可以像对待任何别的人类一样对待你。我对此很是自负。 [00:14:13]It was unquestionably a complication that I couldn't simply read your thoughts to know what your reaction was to me. 毫无疑问，情况很复杂，因为我没办法简单地通过读你的想法来知道你对我的反应。 [00:22:16]I wasn't used to having to go to such circuitous measures, listening to your words in Jessica's mind 我很不习惯，却又不得不采取如此迂回的措施，从杰西卡的脑子里听你说的话 [00:28:07]her mind isn't very original, and it was annoying to have to stoop to that. And then I couldn't know if you really meant what you said. 她脑子里的并非原话，将就着去听实在是件恼人的事。而且我不知道你说的是否真的是字面上的意思。 [00:36:13]It was all extremely irritating. He frowned at the memory. 这一切都格外让人气愤。”想起这些，他不由得皱起了眉头。 [00:41:48]I wanted you to forget my behavior that first day, if possible, so I tried to talk with you like I would with any person. “我想让你忘记我第一天时的举动，如果可能的话，所以我试着和你说话，像我和任何人所做的那样。 [00:50:13]I was eager actually, hoping to decipher some of your thoughts. But you were too interesting, I found myself caught up in your expressions 我确实是渴望心切，想要破译你的一些念头。但你太有趣了，我发现自己被你的表情迷住了 [01:00:27]and every now and then you would stir the air with your hand or your hair, and the scent would stun me again 而且你时不时会用你的手或者你的头发扰动空气，那股香味又一次刺痛了我 [01:07:43]Of course, then you were nearly crushed to death in front of my eyes. 当然，然后你差点就要在我眼前被撞死。 [01:12:17]Later I thought of a perfectly good excuse for why I acted at that moment — 事后我想出了一个极好的借口，解释那时候我为什么会那样做—— [01:16:31]because if I hadn't saved you, if your blood had been spilled there in front of me, 因为如果我不去救你的话，你的血就会在我面前喷溅出来， [01:21:58]I don't think I could have stopped myself from exposing us for what we are. 我不认为我能阻止自己暴露我们的身份。 [01:26:48]But I only thought of that excuse later. At the time, all I could think was, 'Not her.' 但我只是事后才想到这个借口的。那一刻，我所能想到的只是，‘不该是她’。” [01:31:28]He closed his eyes, lost in his agonized confession. I listened, more eager than rational. 他闭上眼睛，沉浸在自己痛苦的自白中。我聆听着，渴望得有些不合常理。 [01:41:07]Common sense told me I should be terrified. Instead, I was relieved to finally understand. 常识告诉我，我应该感到恐惧。但相反地，我很宽慰，因为我最终知晓了一切。 [01:46:44]And I was filled with compassion for his suffering, even now, as he confessed his craving to take my life. 而且，我对他所遭受的折磨充满了怜悯，即使是在现在，即使这时他正坦白着他渴望夺走我的生命。

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